わかりません (wakarimasen).....=(

Today, I found out that it's rather difficult to adjust myself with my gang of friends...They seems like a stranger to me nowadays. I don't know them much already. If I have to do something to pleased them then I think it's not what I expected in a friendship. Since I am young I found out that my friends only needed me whenever they want someone to pleased them or either if they needed something. I am not to sure whether am I thinking to much. It just that if they are my friends, they should understand me well enough. I am not asking for them to make the first move all the time but please understand that I have feelings too and not just a robot that you needed whenever you need. I just needed someone to listen and understand my feelings. But then I guess they were just thinking I am being too stubborn. Sometimes it's not that I want to be alone, just that I am kinda fed up with friends whom take advantages over me...compare to my high schoolmates....non are as good as them...it's just so difficult to find those that care....and I will appreciate my best friends...whom really cares for me...
友情.....どういういみですか??????????????